#49

To whom it may concern,

This is to notify you that the person in the picture above will soon be undergoing a strict diet, which means that there will be no more fast food, junk food, chocolate, etc ... and most importantly, OREO for her in the upcoming week. If she succeeds to lose 5 kilos in exactly 7 days time (trust me, it's super hard BUT possible with determination), she will be entitled to an easier diet plan, which will include a reasonable amount of OREO.

*** WTF ***

Sigh, but seriously...Although my stomach has become a little smaller, my face has expanded... T_T Why is God doing this to me? Why can't the flab on my stomach migrate to my chest or something. WHY. MY. FACE. So .... I have really small eyes now. Gahhh. I was so happy when I woke up with a smaller stomach that I lifted my pjs up, showing my stomach to the boy for him to judge. When he agreed, my smile turned into a frown wtf...because I knew I was going down to have lunch and it'll expand again.

Okay I'll cut the crap. Hohoho. Seriously, I'm back to being ADDICTED to OREO now... No thanks to all the advertorials on blogs... grrrr!!!! I used to LOVE Oreo but never really tried it with milk before... and now that I have, there's really no turning back T_T...Sad, but true. I'm so addicted that I can eat A WHOLE PACK at once. I'm not kidding!!!! There are still 3 packets waiting for me in the pantry...

So I've decided to make...



OREO CHEESECAKE!!! I've made this twice. Once for the boy and the family, once for my sister's colleagues and everyone loved them. I personally think that it'll be so much better if the crushed Oreo on top can remain crunchy after baking... T_T...Mum just asked when I'll be baking this again... so I've decided to bake tomorrow... (hahahaha so I can focus on my diet and let everyone eat up the Oreo nyahahaha bwahahahaha hohohoho wtf)!

Yesterday I went out with the boy... yes, I know this soooo doesn't go with my previous post about breaking up, oh well.. hence my facebook status... IT'S COMPLICATED.



Yes, I wore sunnies on a winter's day ... because I had an eye infection ... sighhh. So I couldn't really take the sunlight and all... I don't care if I look like an idiot with sunnies on during winter... At least I won't look like I just got bashed up...



Then he decided to take my sunnies off... =.="... As you can see, my left eye's a bit swollen... and I looked really sick =.=".... I asked the boy if I looked sick, and he replied, "Yeah you do. But then you ALWAYS look sick when you have to go to class anyway". PFFT. It's true though. I looked sooooo sick when I stepped out of the house, and the moment I've decided not to go to class, I felt so much better and appeared to be less sick wtf.



We walked into Cotton On and tried on some sunnies... Please ignore his super ugly scarf.



My turn. Don't I look like a stupid fly? Even I feel like smacking myself when I look at this picture.



Being a homo. Again, please ignore his super duper ugly scarf...T_T..

Sighhh I need to go look for a job!!!!! .... Right after I'm done with dieting (which is like never wtf)...

and

THE STRICT DIET BEGINS... after I finish this pack of OREO tee hee.

#48

Do you remember this studio photo? How I had to plead and plead you for a few months before we actually went? Just like everything else... I always had to plead. I had to constantly mention the things that I want, the places I want to go... simply because you will tell me "Okay" but in the end never bring it up again.

Remember the heart shaped balloon with our photo on it? I wanted it so long ago... but it wasn't until we were on the verge of breaking up... that you got it for me... and it wasn't because you remembered. It was because we walked past the shop and I had to mention it yet again...If we weren't on the verge of breaking up... I doubt you would've gotten it anyway...

What about the circus? Nopes, never went... missed the whole thing because I stupidly waited and hoped that you'd miraculously remember. I guess miracles don't come by very often...

I'm sick of having to PLEAD you just to ACCOMPANY me to some place. I'm SICK of having to remind you what I like, what I want... what I need. I've had enough of trying to get you to care more... even my very basic emotional needs... you fail to give. You know, sometimes it feels like it takes a break up to wake you up...

The only time I felt like you made everything up to me was after I discovered your BIG. FAT. LIE. and wanted to leave you for good. It was then... you went everywhere I wanted to go. You stayed by my side to hug me tight, to wipe away my tears, to cry along with me, to kiss me and reassure me that everything will be okay. One phone call and you'll appear outside my doorstep, even at 3am in the morning. One complaint and I get what I ask for... but it was all out of nothing but GUILT... because if it was out of LOVE, it wouldn't have been just for that period of time...

I remember when we first started, you were so caring... you made a big deal out of the smallest things. Cared so much even if it was little things like my eyes being red. Now? Headaches, stomach aches... does it matter? Even when I had tonsillitis I felt like other people cared MORE than YOU. I just don't know anymore.

Yes, there's no doubt that we've had a lot of HAPPY moments I can always look back on and they make me smile and laugh. Lately, I've been thinking of the times when we were so much happier...but why is it that I have to think of our happy memories in order to be happy? Why have we failed to create more? Things just don't feel the same anymore. I don't want just happy memories... We can't go on just based on that... I want a happy PRESENT too...

I know that things haven't been easy for you lately...

But I'm also only human.

I can only take this much.


= Knowing me, knowing you...
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you...
We just have to face it
This time we're through.
Breaking up is never easy
I know, but I have to go
Knowing me, knowing you
It's the best I can do =

#47

It's been a million years since I've last updated, I know, I know... and I'm Sorryyy! I've been really lazy to update... (there's really nothing to update actually).

...And so, as a punishment... I will post up a super duper fugly picture of myself... just promise me not to laugh T_T...



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OMG. Heh =.= ... We were imitating each other in the pic. I was laughing at the boyfriend because his face is so loooooong and told him that he looks like a HORSE... hahaha... (trust me, he does hahaha) ... and then he laughed at me for having such a round face T_T ... Hmph! I'd rather that than look like a horse, baby. =PPP!!!

Ohhhhh I had ASAM LAKSA for dinner today...OMFG finally!!! Can't wait to have it in KL!!!

T_T ... I have a sudden urge to go clubbing...